Seven Year Itch

I am not sure what it is, but I have felt stagnant within my relationship for the last few months. I love my other half, and I would never ever cheat on him; but I find myself looking at other guys, and I have even checked out some of the chub/chaser sites. I would be a chub, just so all are aware. I don't even know why I am looking at these things. Maybe I am looking for some sort of lacking friendship. I really only have one gay friend, and we work such conflicting schedules that I hardly ever see him. I wonder if it is a predisposition that made me title this the 7 year itch, or if the phenomenon is actually true. My partner and I met 7 years ago this month, and we "celebrate" our 7 year anniversary at the end of May.

Maybe we need to go away. Both of us are saying that we need a vacation; but I get no paid time off, and he's hit a slump at work, and is not making a lot right now. It always seems to be the way, but you know, it just might be worth the ding on the VISA for a bit.

Also, I have been having a hard time sleeping lately. I need to take something just to fall asleep. I am starting to think that since I turned 30, caffeine actually does something to/for me now. Hard to say really; it could be the shift work I do, the things that are on my mind all the time lately (7 year itch, wanting to change my life, etc).

Speaking of, it is really late and I start days on Monday, so I am cutting this short.

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