Holy Sh!tballs, It's been a long time

Wow..... three years since I have been on here. I looked back at my first few posts, and I saw the blackberry torch phone ordeal. Well, let me tell you, that phone was an abortion and the beginning of the end for blackberry I think. Nine months after that I bought it out and went to an iPhone so that I didn't have to deal with it. Now I've changed again to the Galaxy S4, and I love it. On the job front, about 7 months after my last post, we were told that our agency was closing. 4 months later, my house closed, and I was moved to day program. 1 year later, I was unemployed. I spent just under a year (362 days to be exact) not working full time in CYW, and in that time, I finished my BA, started an addictions program (counsellor, not addict lol), and worked part time at Michael's craft store. Recently, as in this week, I obtained a full time job that will be starting soon, and I am looking forward to it. Oh, and I got a dog. It was my Christmas present to myself. LOL. Gizmo is the sweetest little dog, and I love her to pieces. She's a little mutt, and she is perfect.

F@ck It

I have just about had it with work.... It is getting to the point where I am starting to feel harrassed. I work nights in a treatment home, and for the first time since we opened we have had some problems with kids being in each others rooms. The first time the kids were caught on my shift. Since then it has happened twice more, but on the afternoon shift. Even so, apparently I am being asked questions about documentation and procedure...... Not the other shifts, like when it happens most. I think its just because I am on nights, and the boss thinks I need to be doing more. I'm sorry? I already clean up after everyone, cook their fucking meals, and make sure that the kids live through the night... Not to mention having to be the photocopying bitch, menu planner and garbage cleaner because we're too fucking cheap to get proper garbage cans that keep raccoons out. Oh, and did I mention that I work full time nights? This means I give up a healthy life cycle and sleep to do it..... Well not anymore. I can't and won't take it anymore. I'm going to go and take some time off and find a new job, that I am happier with, and appreciates me and what I do, not ask stupid questions and make assumptions as to how I use the time.

Fuck this.

Well.....

So I have been doing very well with the exercise; at least once a week to the gym, and at least 4 swims a week. I think that I can keep that up. It's been three weeks, and I've managed. Fridays and Saturdays are hard because there is no pool on Friday that I can get to, and Saturday is shot because of the nights rotation, and all pools are adult swim at noon. I think that I might make Friday and Saturday gym days, and take Monday's off. I can go to the gym Friday evening, and then Anytime on Saturday, so that's easy; and since I pay for a membership, I might as well use it, right?

I'm sitting at work and choosing to open with that because otherwise, I might have to just rip someone's head off, and use it to make patterns on the walls. People don't respect polite societal cues, so I sometimes just have to let loose.

Tell me; what would you do if you saw something that was clearly labelled for another purpose? Well the people that I work with seem to think it means to use it in whatever means they see fit anyways. It really gets on my nerves. So I left a scathing note that says that the next time this happens, night staff will not be making snacks for the next day anymore. It is ridiculous. I don't go and use everything that they need for their shift, so why should it be allowed in reverse?

What I really need to do is find a new job closer to home, during daylight hours. I think that this would greatly increase my already sunny disposition tenfold. I would have more time to look after me, and spend less money on gas and car to boot. Everywhere I look, I can't seem to find anything that is suitable to me. It either pays way too little, or is asking for qualifications that I don't have. I guess the key is to keep plugging away at it all, and eventually it will pay off.

Thank God I'm deciding to go for a massage soon and looking into going regularly, as well as returning to the chiropractor. I think my body would implode if I didn't :)

Exercise

Ok, so for anyone who knows me, they know I am no Olympian chomping at the bit to win the gold. In reality, just watching the Olympics makes me tired. I know that I need to exercise more, eat right and quit smoking, but it really isn't that easy. I have tried diets, exercise plans, and even starvation once in college (not by choice but necessity) to no avail. But lately I have been thinking about it more and more, and I realize that I don't want my life to become a TLC special. So this time I am going into it full force. No cigarettes, more healthy food choices, and loads of exercise. Yesterday I went for a walk and a bike ride, today the gym, and tomorrow will be swimming. My friend Trish and I are going to commit to swim Tues and Thurs, and a bike ride on Sunday (with a swim being an option for poor weather or wintertime). Scott and I went to the gym today and it as good, other than my Romy & Michelle moment where I got blisters on my heels; one of which ripped and bled into my nice clean white gym shoe....... Fack!

This time I am committing to staying on track. Will I go every time for my workouts? Not likely. Will I have a cigarette? Most likely. The difference is that this time I am not going to see these things as failures, but as obstacles in the steps to becoming a new me.

Time to go get ready for work and start planning my menu for the week.

Jesus and ferrets

Sometimes work makes me giggle. Jesus and ferrets came up in shift change tonight and I had a good laugh. I have decided that similar to "42", this phrase can be used as the answer to everything....

I was going to write about something else as well, but Jesus and ferrets made me laugh again, and I forgot my topic.

Peace, love, Jesus & ferrets!

What to do, what to do....

So I recently decided that it was time for some changes and began looking for work closer to home. I had an interview for a full time job and a part time job... I haven't heard back from the part time, but I did not get the full time one. I'm not sure what I want in life, but I know that what I have right now is not it. There are so many variables that I get sleepy just thinking of them.

I think that I need a vacation though it will be september at the earliest before I can do that. Until then I have a number of things that I need/want to do;

Lose weight
Quit smoking
Clean my house from top to bottom
Finish my garden
Cook more at home
Find a new job that isn't nights

Those are just at the top of the list.......where do I begin?

New Phone And True Blood

So I decided to upgrade my phone..... Which turned out to be an almost nightmare, though in reality netted me a new phone and a better plan for less money... Bell is such a corrupt and morally bankrupt company..... They overcharge for all their services, which are subpar at best... I had to threaten to cancel everything just to get my new phone as they had changed my corporate plan without telling me.....grrr.

Anyways, I got the blackberry torch, and its cool.. The touch screen keyboard takes some getting used to, but the phone is faster, better and has a bigger screen. Let's see if I still like it in a month!

Not sure how I felt about True Blood tonight... The story lines are getting more and more strange, and there are so many new characters... Hopefully the decision to branch out from the books isn't making this awesome show jump the shark....

PS- bring back United States Of Tara :)